spend my life getting validation through means of sexuality. Touch is sexual in nature. On a scale, sexuality
- how many decisions/actions, words, thoughts,…. were lined up/ creating a shared reality with another human?
I was set to blast out the front door, first thing this morning. While engaged in our morning rituals/getting right with GOD, I felt a ‘energy shift’! I am not clear as to how my history has brought me here (I am a product of my environment). Within that environment I am a conscious participant, making choices/creating/destroying//////grieving/fighting/allowing/understanding/
My emotions like a revolving door
Each of us has a history (a story), an environment which has influenced our beliefs. Within Me is a little girl. Validated in inappropriate manners. (A child needs/HUMANS NEED touch to survive. Touch is sexual in nature. )
My mix up//////between you and I….and everyone else listening, this is a time to understand something about ourselves.
Our experiment with abstinence has shown me something. NOT ON IT’S OWN, I suspect!!!
If it wasn’t for my environment, (past and present/day and night) this alignment would not be my reality…..AND i do Love my Life today!! I am
Why did I outwardly try to fight in my adolescence?
in fact, I am knowing this much…..
The resentment I hold against my father is one we almost all hold against our parents.
Deepest Resentment, I see thus far:
- The lack of positive feelings between my father and I. Most of our relationship is distracted from the deeper truths. Religion, Love, Self-worth, Validation; to name a few relevant connections/understandings. The use of drugs and alchool, Infidelity, Dishonest, Abusive.
Taking time to acknowledge our children is critical for our future. My future ?
Depends on my feelings about my past.