Telly reassured my score as a wife and mother. Her verbal approval of Our Marriage is rare, especially from a Young Women from a split up family. She has more of a chance with her future than her parents did. By choices that they made. Our chances of changing our lives is strengthened by our parents mistakes. We can love them, for they are our parents. They took on a life altering situation by agreeing to take part in parenting.
BUT FOR GOODNESS SAKES…..We don’t need to make the same waste of time ‘staying high’ on what ever it is that takes them away from self-awareness/and learning gentle kindness toward themselves.
For many years, I played out the role my addict mother chose. Some how I felt closer to her. The world was definitely a better place when my mother was spreading love. She passed away when I was 10. I discovered, with the help of my hubby, I didn’t need ignorance bliss in my experience. My mom was unavailable for my brother and I. AND, this was not the life worth living. My pity for her. I didn’t want to be better than her. I was making sure of that when I used Meth, Sex, or anything else used out of proportion.
Telly: “You guys should stay to together always. You are ‘Dynamite Couple”
Telly’s dad (Mr. Lincolns PaPa), took time out from work to raise the children, while mother worked from 7 to 7 . She was unable to be present and still struggles with her relationships (by her choice). Some people are said to be born that way, unavailable emotionally/ emotionally out of control.
I only know that I was Not……..born that way. I am not accepting ‘ignorant is bliss’. I continue to be interested in a balanced life. An appropriate placement of emotions. A time and place for ‘everything’.
Within the moments of unfolding life there are opportunities for MANY ROLES for one to choice to play. A well orchestrated social performance allows for us ALL to get a taste of ‘center stage’ if You will.
God Knows What’s Up
I remember thinking! NO…..I REMEMBER KNOWING!! I was a Meth junky, 2 years in….maybe. I remember knowing that I could have a Life worth living. Blessed I am with a healthy body and mind. I have a communicative relationship with my Angels’. More than I used to, and not always tuned in when I would like to be.
My girlfriend asked, ‘When?” I naturally, without effort, ” Sooner than Later / Before but After “
My interpretation; Soonerthan later (You can count on me) Before but After (Before dark but after dinner)
Do You have any tags for Sooner than Later/ Before but After ?